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HOW OLD DO I SOUND

YOU CAN SAY A NUMBER THAT IS >12 IF YOU NEED TO

I UNDERSTAND

WARNING: this post is kind of ~serious business~ because my dreams fucking freak me out and mess with my head. So umm just deal with it I guess :P



During my nap this afternoon, I had a dream about ghosts. They followed a group of us around, and we lived in dread. The man I was intending to marry went insane because of it. They had to put him in a "full body" straight jacket that looked kind of like a cocoon. He made sad faces and mumbled things about everyone leaving him. I stayed by his side, hugging him and stroking his hair and crying because I knew he was gone. Later in the dream I went to the place we first met with a friend of mine. It was dark, the shop was dimly lit, and the women who ran it were hiding somewhere in the back of the building. I thought I saw him, but obviously it wasn't him. But I had a small hint of hope that maybe he'd been sent somewhere and gotten better. The women came out and asked me If I had heard that he died. I hadn't. Somewhere in the middle of the dream I saw a large truck, the kind exterminaters or carpet cleaners use. I could read everything except the owner's first name. I yelled, "What the shit is your first name!?!?" and he jumped down to talk to me. He was gorgeous, and he hugged me like the other guy had already died. We walked while hugging, and when we passed his building I saw "Mike" and "Jeff." I said, "Mike?" and he answered, "Jeff." He took me to this seemingly abandoned warehouse-type place with empty white rooms all over the place. We went into one and planned on being alone, but pretty much the entire group from the beginning came in, and we all sat in a big circle. While watching the dream, I already knew what was going on, like when you watch a movie the second time. He snuggled up to me, and while I knew I didn't love him, it was nice that he was there. We passed around a sugar cookie with a smiley face on it. The idea was that if there was a spirit in the room someone would feel a "breath" coming from the cookie. The dream cut out around that point, and it was just sort of implied that I fucked that guy, lol. He wasn't as sweet after that, so I told him to go away. I woke up and felt very sad about my dead crazy boyfriend. I still feel really weird about it even though he didn't remind me of anyone I know IRL and we never interacted in the dream since he had already gone crazy. There was one tiny little flashback-type thing of him smiling and looking at me the way people do when they're in love. He stood a good ten inches higher than me and I was comfortable when I was near him. When I woke up I could still feel all of that even though none of it really exists.

IN SHORT I AM PROBABLY CRAZY AND SHOULD PROBABLY WATCH SHOWS ABOUT KITTENS ROLLING AROUND AND PLAYING WITH FEATHERS BEFORE I GO TO BED.

OKAY JUST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IT HERE ARE SOME MORE IM IN UR LAJGKDJLKGJ PICTURES


ALSO FROM THE COMMENT ON CLH LOL












OKAY I'M DONE I PROMISE

I was making this for smartassery at CLH



and I just want to say that this is my dream man and that any man who wouldn't be okay with waking up to a teensy beensy snuggly buggly little kitten butt is not the man for me.

OKAY I'M IN THE BEST MOOD EVAR
HERE'S WHY:

1.) I AM PRETTY SURE I ACED MY SPANISH TEST THIS MORNING WHICH I HONESTLY DIDN'T REALLY STUDY FOR AT ALL

2.) MY LIFE O' CHRIST PROFESSOR GAVE US 90% OF THE QUESTIONS THAT WILL BE ON OUR TEST ON FRIDAY SO IT WILL OBVIOUSLY BE VERY EASY SINCE WE KNOW WHAT TO STUDY AND EXACTLY WHAT HE WANTS ON THE TEST

3.) I FINALLY BROKE DOWN AND OPENED MY TAMAGOTCHI!!! IT WAS A GIRL AND I NAMED HER DELIA AND RIGHT NOW SHE IS SLEEPING AND I LOVE HER LOL

4.) I HAD A DELICIOUS CHICKEN SANDWICH FROM MCDONALDS AND WATCHED THE NEW SOUTH PARK EPISODE WHICH WAS HILAAARIOUS

5.) UMM I'M HAVING A GREAT DAY LOL THE END :D

LOOK AT WHAT I MADE



lol it's from this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHzqMa9hZew
that my friend steven sent me because he luffs me

OKAY GUYS, WHAT WOULD BE COOLER TO STUDY FOR YOUR JOB?






ORRR

OMG
MY MOM CAME HOME AT 10PM
AND MY BABY SIMON BEAR SNUCK OUT ONTO THE BACK PORCH
AND WAS STILL OUT THERE FIVE MINUTES AGO WHEN MY PARENTS WENT TO BED
AND MY DAD SAW THE BACK PORCH LIGHT COME ON
LIKE SOMETHING WAS OUT THERE
AND IT WAS MY MR. BIDDLES D:
HE WAS OUT THERE FOR SO LONG ALL ALONE
OMG MY BABYYYYY

in other news, i keep pushing out 95% of my poop but that other 5% stays up there and i'm afraid i'll get a butt sore and it will make my life hell. LOL THIS IS VALUABLE INFORMATION AND I BET YOU'RE GLAD I SHARED IT WITH YOU

http://community.livejournal.com/ihearttattoos/2168453.html

WHAT

"CUPCAKE TATTOOS ARE THE NEW HEART/STAR TATTOOS"

GODDAMMIT YOU GUYS

http://s89.photobucket.com/albums/k216/rivkastic/halloween06/

pictures from tonight :D

my mom was a scary witch, i was a black cat (and then pucca when i got home because i just felt like it lol), and my dad was the old corleone guy from the godfather who dies with the orange peel in his mouth. he just wore his hat because he hates halloween so i made him pretend it was a costume. we went to cici's, but first we stopped at this dollar store next to it and bought tons of crap. that's where i got my jew candle holder. i got the magazine at walmart. it was fun. i'd make a normal funny story picture post but i have homeworks and my wrist is sore. sorry lol happy halloween everybody.

i got the polka dot one. they had free charms instead of free lanyards, so i got the ones with this orange girl character, a heart that's kind of see-through, and a flower i'm giving to my mom. they also had charms with the yellow/blue character, a yellow present box, and a hot dog. i almost got that because wtf hot dog charm, but it was too much yellow and i hate yellow a whole bunch. plus the present box had red ribbon and the only thing i hate more than yellow is red and yellow together. so thanks for your participation in the poll, it really did help me with my decision. i was torn between the pink and the dots, but i have a pink faceplate on my phone and a pink breast cancer charm on it and a pink backpack and i just decided ENOUGH WITH THE PINK ALREADY and went with the dots. lol my mom left and i said "what are you going to look at?" and she said "anything far enough away that you can't ask me which one i like better anymore!" i'm so very very bad at making decisions and it annoys her a lot. but i've decided not to open it until december 14th because it's the day after finals and omg if i open it before finals i will flunk them all. but yaaayyy i'm happy to actually have it. i know it's weird to get something almost two months early, but i just couldn't stand the thought of them running out of the good ones and only having something nasty like the gray graffiti one or something by the time i went to get one. after all this thinking about designs, i'd seriously flip out if that happened. so now my pretty blue polka dotted tamagotchi is in my room waiting to be played with in december, and i'm happy :D

ps sorry for the not capitalizing, i don't feel like shifting.

pps i'm going to have a poll about my major sometime this week because i obviously cannot make my own decisions and need my dear internet friends to make them for me.

PPPPPPPPPPS HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! XD

last night was the worst night of my life. ever. so i get an email from my professor saying i had until monday night to take my online test even though i emailed him saying i couldn't because of my wrist. so i go ahead and take the test (last night obvsly) and omg. i didn't know half of the shit on there because it was obscure and weird, i looked at all the slides he had on his website since he said that's where it would all be and basically none of it was on there. so i'm freaking out and my wrist hurts and my dad's in here saying "don't get mad if i fall asleep" which just made me mad because he had my bible to look up verses because i couldn't do it fast enough with my wrist, so i kept saying "ok look this up blah blah is it this answer?" and he was just like "lol probably" over and over and omg on a couple of them i had the right answer and he said "no wait i don't think that's right...." and it was D: so i was yelling and screaming and cussing and saying "wtf if you don't know any of this then get the hell out" and he got super pissed and i seriously had ZERO seconds remaining when i was done. the time ran out the moment i stopped typing on the last essay one, which my dad said he would type for me and then decided not to for some reason. it was all bullshit and i cried for like 20 minutes after i finished. plus this matching section, i found all the answers and had it right but the answer key thing at the end said i put the same answer on two questions and got the rest wrong and i know i didn't. ugghhhh. so my parents and i had a huge fight about how i can't control my anger and anxiety and how if my study habits don't improve i'll flunk out. well just my dad said that but it was uncalled for because i got a 4.0 last semster and i had a 3.8 at midterm a couple weeks ago so fuck that. and i guess it's ok now, at least with my mom, but i don't feel like apologizing to my dad when he goes and says mean shit to me all the time, even if i am sorry about how i came across during the test. seriously, when i normally take these tests i'm done in like 40 minutes (we get 100 minutes to take it) and i ace it, so this was just awful and stupid and awful.

SOOOOOO today my professor asks me if i'm okay after class and i'm like "well kind of i guess, my wrist is actually severely sprained and i took the test last night and it was awful" and he said he got the email i sent him about my wrist but didn't have time to respond to it. so i told him the thing graded my test with different answers than what i put and maybe it was just because i was using my right hand and messed up or something. then he said that a few other kids told him that the test showed different answers than what they had too, so maybe i didn't mess up. i told him i wasn't going to ask him if i could retake it because it wouldn't be fair, but i never do badly on his tests and this was a messed up situation. so he said he'd think of something to do, which usually means something about getting points back :D so hopefully it'll be okay.

it just really makes me upset that my dad thinks he can say whatever he wants but that i have to apologize for getting justifiably freaked out and yelling. like it's wrong for me to yell at him but it's okay for him to call me a loser and to say that maybe i shouldn't even be in college if this is how i'm going to handle it. that's such bullshit, at least i TAKE the tests and turn in my papers and come to class and participate. most kids here don't come to class half of the time because they're either hungover or just tired and don't care. and they don't turn in their assignments and don't even make excuses, they just didn't do it and don't plan to do it. i'm not like that, i'm getting my work done and going to class and doing the best i fucking can considering everything i'm dealing with outside of school. this wrist business just pushed me over the edge, i guess.

OH AND IF THAT'S NOT BAD ENOUGH, MY PARENTS ARE GETTING NEW CARS AND MY DAD MIGHT GET A NAVY/PURPLEY KIA SPORTAGE WHICH IS MY FUCKING DREAM CAR AND HE DOESN'T EVEN LIKE SUVS AND IF HE GETS IT HE'LL TEAR IT UP BEFORE I EVEN GET MY LICENSE AND I'LL NEVER HAVE MY NAVY/PURPLEY KIA SPORTAGE D:

but on a happy note, i'm pretty sure i'll get my tamagotchi tomorrow. if i can decide which one i want lol. and tomorrow's halloween so i have to make sure i'm happy by tomorrow so i can enjoy it properly.

Poll #855925 do you know where my pee went?
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 15

Which one should I get?

night: http://trus.imageg.net/graphics/product_images/pTRU1-3091335dt.jpg
pink: http://trus.imageg.net/graphics/product_images/pTRU1-2786760dt.jpg
dots: http://trus.imageg.net/graphics/product_images/pTRU1-2786758dt.jpg

okay, here is what's going on with my wrist.

a couple weeks ago i was going from my kitchen to my dining room and i bumped into the doorway because i was tired and dizzy, heh. so i screamed and freaked out and my mom got all mad until she saw my arm puff up like a puffy thing. she had to go to work because she was the only one working that night, so she told me to keep ice on the arm and to not do much with it. my arm was sore, but my hand was tingly on the left side, mainly my wrist and pinky finger. but it calmed down a couple days later and the swelling went down a little, so we just forgot about it. my arm's been a little swolle this whole time though. anyway, on monday i was capschatting and my hand just flipped out and said THAT'S IT, I'M DONE WORKING! my thumb hurt super bad so i just thought it was from being online too much and told everybody i was taking a break from the internets. i wore an ace wrap to school the rest of the week, which was fine, but my pinky started feeling not right and that part of my wrist was sore. that bone bump thing people have on their wrists, mine was too far down from my hand and too far to the left, and my pinky felt dislocated. it still does, but my mom thinks it's because the soft tissue is pushing it out or something. i mean the joint isn't right and my finger won't move right and uugghhh. so anyway i finally said i had to go see a doctor and get an x-ray, so my mom took me yesterday. i got my x-rays and they said they'd send the report over asap. this morning at 11 my mom called and they said it was in, but my dad had to call three times in the afternoon before anybody would read the report to him. the nurse who told my dad said my x-ray report had this on it:
"no spurs, no loose bodies, no fractures"
which is all fine and good
and
"LOTS AND LOTS OF SOFT TISSUE DAMAGE"
which sucks.

my mom told me that it means i basically sprained it, which is weird because all i did was hit my arm and that was a while ago D: she also said that since it's so swollen it's very severe. so uhh lol it's still not good and i'm still going to have an mri next week (unless something goes wrong and i can't get a doctor's recommendation thing) and i might need to go to an orthopedist (sp?) guy to get a real brace type thing that will support my wrist and my pinky. i just got back from walgreens, they had a sale on wrist/knee brace things so i got a wrist one for like two dollars heh. but it doesn't do shit for my pinky and it kind of pulls on my thumb a little. but now i can type at least a little better, like i can hold my arm still and use everything but my thumb and pinky. so it's all good.

ALSO THE CARDINALS WON THE WORLD SERIES AND I AM A HAPPY PANDA

so my wrist/hand might be broken. i'll find out sometime today, hopefully soon. i'm typing with one hand and it sucks.

ps whoever has the tamagotchis needs to talk to me because i'm thinking about getiing one.

I LOVE CHRIS CARPENTER AND I LOVE BASEBALL

Umm I don't remember when this was but it was in my aim user info and I wanted to put something else in there.


x9frank: i hate these HALF FOX HALF DEMON things
x9frank: like people who like furries do that
x9frank: where theyre like
x9frank: IM HALF ARCTIC FOX AND HALF SNOW LEOPARD
x9frank: and its like
x9frank: YOU ARE NOT
x9frank: NO ONE IS

This is my favourite thing in the whole world. Think about that table as my computer desk because I had trouble lining this up and didn't draw a chair or laptop, but that's what my kitten Simon does all the time. Like every single time I get on the computer no matter what. He did it four times tonight, and after I kicked him off the fourth time he sulked and fell asleep on my bed. So I drew this because I felt bad D:

Umm, this isn't nearly as special as what everyone else is doing but

HAPPY  BURFDAY  EGGIE  ILU